◆하느님의 뜻 지식에만 집착하겠습니다.

 

◆하느님의 뜻 지식에만 집착하겠습니다.

 

2013.7.17.(수) 오전6시 여의도성당 미사참석

 

영성체 후 기도

 

흠숭하올 예수님, 이 못난 작은이는 오들도 예수님의 성체를 받아 모시어 새 생명을 받았습니다. 예수님의 뜻, 지성, 지식, 사랑을 받습니다. 이 못난 작은이 안에는 악에 오염된 저의 생명, 뜻, 지성, 지식, 사랑 등이 있다면, 예수님의 생명, 의지, 지성, 지식, 사랑을 받기가 어렵습니다. 악에 오염된 이 못난 작은이의 모든 것을 버려 없애는 것은 제가 할 일이고 저의 책무입니다. 눈물이 주르르 흘러내립니다.

 

미사를 마친 후에 묵상을 계속합니다. 이 지상 생활을 하면서 많은 지식을 갖게 되었습니다. 지금은 하느님의 뜻에 관한 지식을 얻고 깨닫는 일에 집착, 집중하고 있습니다. 사회생활을 하면서 얻은 지식을 버리려고 하기보다는, 그 지식을 활용하려고 떠올리고 발전시키는 집착을 의식적으로 하지 않는 방법을 택하겠습니다. 이 방법이 쉬울 것입니다.

 

루이사님은 사회생활 경험이 아주 적습니다. 사회경험이 많은 다른 사람들보다 하느님의 뜻 안에서 사는 것이 쉽게 이루어졌을 것입니다. 이 못난 작은이도 하느님의 뜻 안에서 사는 사람이 되어보겠다는 결심을 하였으면, 사회생활에 대한 집착에서 벗어나서 하느님의 뜻을 알고 깨닫고 실행하는 것에만 집착하겠습니다.

 

봉헌 기도

 

성부님, 성자님, 성령님, 인성과 신성을 겸비하신 성자 예수 그리스도님, 자기를 버리지 못하고 예수님으로부터 새 생명을 받고 있다고 생각한, 이 못난 작은이의 교만과 자만을 용서하여 주십시오. 일상생활에서 집착해서는 안 될 것을 과감히 버리겠습니다. 버린 후에 저의 몸과 마음과 생명과 생활 모두를 주님께 맡기겠습니다. 바치겠습니다. 봉헌하겠습니다.

기도의창이 파란색으로 바뀝니다. 눈물(반성의 눈물, 후회의 눈물, 교만과 자만을 비웃는 자조(自嘲)의 눈물)이 주르르 흐릅니다. 부끄러워 머리를 숙입니다.

 

잠시 침묵한 후에 머리를 들고 기도의 창을 응시(凝視)하며

아멘, 아멘, 아아아아멘.을 깨달음을 얻은 벅찬 마음으로 합니다.

 

영광송을 하였습니다. 지난번처럼 영상을 떠올리는 것이 주가 되고, 의미를 생각하는 것이 부(副)가 되었습니다.

감실을 바라보고 성호경을 합니다. ‘감실 안에 계신 성체 예수님, 이 못난 작은이가 감실 안에 계신 예수님을 바라보고 눈을 뜨고 말씀을 드립니다.(지금까지는 눈을 감고 기도를 드릴 때에만 말씀을 드렸습니다.) 감회가 새롭습니다. 성체 예수님, 이 못난 작은이가 아직도 사회생활에 필요한 지식에 집착하여, 저 자신을 비우지 못하고 있음을 깨닫게 하여 주셔서 감사합니다. 하느님의 뜻 지식에만 집착하겠습니다. 감사합니다. 안녕히 계십시오.’

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천상의 책 제 20권 34장 1926년 12월 8일 글을 스캔 복사하여 올립니다. 큰 깨달음을 주어 감격의 눈물을 흘리며 읽었습니다.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Book of Heaven Volume 20 34 December 8, 1926

 

How one who lives in the Divine Will is the echo and the little sun. How these writings come from the Heart of Our Lord. The works of Our Lord are veils that hide the noble Queen of the Divine Will.

I was doing my usual acts in the Eternal Volition, and my always lovable Jesus, moving in my interior, told me: “My daughter, you are Our echo. As you enter into Our Will in order to love, to praise, to ask for the coming of Our Kingdom, We hear in you the echo of Our Love, the echo of Our Glory, the echo of Our Fiat that wants to come upon earth in order to reign, that wants to be prayed, and prayed again, and pressed to come to reign on earth as It does in Heaven.

“And as you go around through the whole Creation to follow the acts of the Supreme Will in It, We hear your echo in the sea, in the valleys, on the mountains, in the sun, in the heavens, in the stars—in everything. How beautiful is this echo—it is Our echo that resounds in all Our things. In this echo, We hear the echo of Our voice, the motion of Our works, the treading of Our steps, the motions—the pulsation of Our heartbeat, and We greatly delight in seeing your littleness, as you, while echoing, try to imitate Our voice, to copy the motions of Our works, to make the same sound as Our steps, and to love with Our own heartbeat.”

Then, sighing, He added: “My daughter, if the sun had reason and saw a plant, a being, that wanted to become sun, the sun would increase all of its light, its heat and all of its effects over this being, so as to make it become sun. And even though it would not deny its light and its effects to the other beings—because it is in the nature of light to diffuse and to do good to all, wherever it is—the fortunate being that received, all together, all the reflections and all the goods that the sun contains, would become sun. What glory, what contentment would the sun not receive in being able to form another sun? The entire earth, for many centuries, has never attested to it so much glory, so much love, by receiving its many effects, as this one being that has turned into sun.

“By living in Our Fiat, the soul does nothing other than imitate her Creator, and the Eternal Sun concentrates all of Its reflections upon her, in such a way that she becomes the little sun, in the likeness of the Divine Sun. Was this not precisely Our purpose and Our saying: ‘Let Us make man in Our Image and Likeness’?

“To make him without his having to be like Us and carry within himself the image of He who had created him, would be neither decorous nor worthy of a work of Our hands; nor would it be power of that regenerative breath that came out of Our womb to generate a being dissimilar from Us. What would be said of a mother who generated, not a child who had eyes, mouth, hands, feet, and would be similar to her in all members—at most, smaller than her in all members, but lacking nothing of all the organs of the mother—but generated a plant, a bird, a stone, things that are dissimilar from her?

“It would be incredible—things against nature and unworthy of a mother, who was not able to infuse her image and all of her members in her newborn. Now, if all things generate and form things similar to themselves, much more so does God, first Generator, whose honor and glory in forming the creatures was to form them as similar to Himself. Therefore, My daughter, let your flight in My Will be continuous, that It may concentrate Its rays upon you, and darting through you, It may make of you Its little sun.”

After this, I was feeling as though tired and could not make up my mind to write what my adored Jesus had told me. And Jesus, surprising me, to give me will and strength in order to do it, told me: “My daughter, don’t you know that these Writings of Ours come from the depth of My Heart, and in them I make flow the tenderness of My Heart, to touch those who will read them, and the firmness of My Divine speech, to strengthen them in the truths of My Will?

“In all the sayings, truths, examples, that I make you write on paper, I make flow the dignity of My celestial Wisdom, in such a way that those who read them, or will read them, if they are in grace, will feel within themselves My tenderness, the firmness of My speech and the light of My Wisdom, and, as though in between magnets, they will be drawn into the knowledge of My Will.

“Those who are not in grace, then, will not be able to deny that it is light; and light always does good, it never does harm; it illuminates, it warms, it makes one discover the most hidden things and moves one to love them. Who can say he does not receive good from the sun? No one. More than sun, I am issuing these Writings from within My Heart, that they may do good to all. This is why I have so much interest that you write—because of the great good I want to do to the human family; so much so, that I look upon them as My own Writings, because it is always I the one who dictates, and you are the little secretary of the long story of My Will.”

Then, I was following, in the Divine Will, everything that my sweet Jesus had done while being on earth in His Humanity, and I asked in each one of His Acts that His Fiat be known, and that It come triumphantly to reign in the midst of creatures.

And my highest and only Good, moving in my interior, told me: “My daughter, just as all Creation is veil that hides My Will, in the same way, My Humanity and all of My works, tears and pains are as many veils that hide My Supreme Fiat. It reigned in My Acts, triumphant and dominating, and It laid the foundations in order to come to reign in the human acts of creatures.

“But do you know who tears these veils to let It come out to dominate in her own heart? one who recognizes It in each one of My Acts, and invites It to come out. She tears the veil of My works, she enters into them, she recognizes the noble Queen, and she prays It—she presses It to no longer remain hidden; and opening her heart to It, she invites It to enter. She tears the veil of My tears, of My Blood, of My pains, the veil of the Sacraments, the veil of My Humanity, and giving her subjection to It, she implores It to no longer remain veiled, but to make Itself known as Queen—which It is—in order to take Its dominion and form the children of Its Kingdom.

“From here the necessity that you go around in Our Volition and in all Our works, to find the noble Queen of Our Will hidden in them, so as to pray It to unveil Itself, to come out of Its apartments, so that all may know It and let It reign.”